God, I feel distant from You
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
I just wanna scream it all out.
I feel so far from You.
I'm so sorry.
"How many times, have I broken Your heart?
But still You forgive, if only I ask.
And how many times, have You heard me pray?
Draw near to me."
-All for Love, Hillsong.
"Even when I fail You...
I know You love me..."
-At the Cross, Hillsong.
It hurts to completely ignore the time you need to spend with Him--just because you were busy with your cellphone. I don't know what's wrong with me right now. I'm still asking for His revelation. I'm waiting still.
"Break my heart for what breaks Yours.."
-Hosanna, Hillsong.
I know, I've been through a lot lately. I gave up everything to Him. My friends eventually turned their backs on me. Everything was unfair. Everything was falling apart. My world started to turn upside down. It seemed that I had no hope.
But out of nowhere, a Voice called out to me. "My child, I am still here." Tears fell from my eyes when I heard that. I couldn't help but embrace His love. I couldn't help but cry harder and harder.
Despite everything, He was still there--He will always be there. My world fell apart, but He was still there. He still cared--He will always care.
But I still chose to ignore Him. I chose to not to communicate with Him. I chose to follow my own selfish will. But in the end... I was still caught in His arms. He still caught me in His arms..
with the same words. "My child, I'm still here..."
