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Trust.Trust.Trust.


It is by His grace once again, and by His Spirit that I was once again, being made able by God, to lead His people. I've been leading in Sunday services for 4 sundays now. And everytime I do, it always feel as if the first time. Yes, I do worship lead in our youth fellowship... But I have a different team when it's for the Sunday worship.

I really thank God for blessing my heart. I knew He saw how I reacted during the first service. You see, it was as if na parang pagod yung lahat, parang hindi pa in the mood--and included na dito yung p&w team. I was okay. God and I were and are very okay. But earlier... it was as if... He was testing me.

Hindi nakarating iyong keyboardist namin nung first service, I only had one back-up, and they got another person for the powerpoint transparency, because the one who does the role of being a projector, were late.

I was like... I'm okay God, kasama naman kita. But, inside... I was really really... troubled? Not really troubled. It was as if... I was disheartened. I cannot explain it using the right adjective/feeling... but... God knows.


And then... the second service came. Thank God for the breakthrough in my heart... May nag speak in tongues, and... I interpreted it. And then I was pouring my heart out. Now I know! During the first service... it was as if... I failed to trust God. I mean, I trusted Him--a divided trust. I was crying, as I was singing the last song...

"The one thing, the one thing.. I ask. Is to be with You Lord! The one thing...the one thing...I asked, is to be with You..."

Tears were streaming down my face, and I couldn't sing it rightly anymore. My voice was muffled. But, I kept on worshiping Him, and I could feel His warmth comfort of embrace. I continued singing:

"This is my cry, my one desire... is to be where You are Lord... now and forever."

When I mentioned the last 3 words... I cried even more. It is indeed a great joy to be with Him right now... how much more if we'll be with Him forever?!

"It's more than a song... My one desire... is to be with You... is to be with You... Jesus..."

I felt so blessed by God. The first thing that I learned... and I realized, and I've also read from the book about praise & worship leading....

1. When everything else fails to work, if the microphones won't work, if there are any missing instrumentalists, if the strings of the guitar fails, and if the drumsticks falls, always remember one thing... fix your eyes on Jesus, fix it on Him.

2.Trust Him, and let His will be done. Where 2 or 3 are gathered in His name, there He is with them.

3.If you are a leader, you must have a heart of a servant, and you must be willing to be God's follower.

4.He will give you the desires of your heart if you delight yourself in Him!

and lastly...

5.He looks for someone with a BIG heart for Him. Fruits are better than gift!

I want to quote this verse from Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding... in all your ways acknowledge Him... and He will make your path straight.."

And in closing, I would like to say....



When all else fails, just fix your eyes on Jesus!

i am what i am and that's what He wants me to be...
psalms 139

a lady that is striving to live in accordance to God's will
who is learning to see God's greater purpose for her
who is not perfect yet striving to give her best to her Master.


The vision statement:
to be used by God for His glory and honor alone. to make history and to reach out for unsaved souls.
to see myself bearing the fruits of the Spirit. to walk with Him through tears and joy.
to see myself being used by God as a worship pastor, to be equipped by His word, to make a difference.
to hear my Master's voice and to see His face one day and to stand before Him and to hear Him say: "well done,good and faithful servant!"




God, church friends ,family
,singing ,guitar ,drums ,keyboard ,bass
,preffered to be called gee. age is a mystery.
i am God's servant. it's all about Him.

Trust.Trust.Trust.


It is by His grace once again, and by His Spirit that I was once again, being made able by God, to lead His people. I've been leading in Sunday services for 4 sundays now. And everytime I do, it always feel as if the first time. Yes, I do worship lead in our youth fellowship... But I have a different team when it's for the Sunday worship.

I really thank God for blessing my heart. I knew He saw how I reacted during the first service. You see, it was as if na parang pagod yung lahat, parang hindi pa in the mood--and included na dito yung p&w team. I was okay. God and I were and are very okay. But earlier... it was as if... He was testing me.

Hindi nakarating iyong keyboardist namin nung first service, I only had one back-up, and they got another person for the powerpoint transparency, because the one who does the role of being a projector, were late.

I was like... I'm okay God, kasama naman kita. But, inside... I was really really... troubled? Not really troubled. It was as if... I was disheartened. I cannot explain it using the right adjective/feeling... but... God knows.


And then... the second service came. Thank God for the breakthrough in my heart... May nag speak in tongues, and... I interpreted it. And then I was pouring my heart out. Now I know! During the first service... it was as if... I failed to trust God. I mean, I trusted Him--a divided trust. I was crying, as I was singing the last song...

"The one thing, the one thing.. I ask. Is to be with You Lord! The one thing...the one thing...I asked, is to be with You..."

Tears were streaming down my face, and I couldn't sing it rightly anymore. My voice was muffled. But, I kept on worshiping Him, and I could feel His warmth comfort of embrace. I continued singing:

"This is my cry, my one desire... is to be where You are Lord... now and forever."

When I mentioned the last 3 words... I cried even more. It is indeed a great joy to be with Him right now... how much more if we'll be with Him forever?!

"It's more than a song... My one desire... is to be with You... is to be with You... Jesus..."

I felt so blessed by God. The first thing that I learned... and I realized, and I've also read from the book about praise & worship leading....

1. When everything else fails to work, if the microphones won't work, if there are any missing instrumentalists, if the strings of the guitar fails, and if the drumsticks falls, always remember one thing... fix your eyes on Jesus, fix it on Him.

2.Trust Him, and let His will be done. Where 2 or 3 are gathered in His name, there He is with them.

3.If you are a leader, you must have a heart of a servant, and you must be willing to be God's follower.

4.He will give you the desires of your heart if you delight yourself in Him!

and lastly...

5.He looks for someone with a BIG heart for Him. Fruits are better than gift!

I want to quote this verse from Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding... in all your ways acknowledge Him... and He will make your path straight.."

And in closing, I would like to say....



When all else fails, just fix your eyes on Jesus!
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